8.24.2007

Am I a bad Mommy??

I cannot believe this happened. I think I'm actually more worried about what could have rather than what did happen. Thank heavens for guardian angels and Heavenly Father's watchful eye.
Last night Chris, Savanna, & I were outside playing on the deck, eating dinner, you know the normal summer evening routine. Chris went inside to do something--I can't remember what. Savanna was happily playing in her new house and I was tidying up the mess from the day. I went inside to throw something away and Chris came down stairs & we started talking. The next thing I know is Chris asks, "Where's Savanna?" My heart drops & I turn around and rush outside. She's not there. I immediately around the house praying that she's not in the road. I see her little shoes poking out from between our parked cars...she's just sitting there playing in the rocks. Thank heavens! I grab her & let out a sigh. I just want to cry. I cannot believe that I allowed myself to be distracted. I was so mad at myself. Chris thought I was mad at him for being mad at me, but I deserved it.
I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows me & knows that having my little girl get hurt would push me over the edge right now. He's blessed me with the skills I need to go out tomorrow & install a gate for our deck. I've learned my lesson. I've been holding her a little bit tighter & enjoying her a little bit more since that moment of sheer panic & fear. Thank you for all your prayers on our behalf. I know they helped keep my baby safe because she LOVES the road and she stopped just shy of it to play in the rocks. :)

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